Whoa! I opened up my countdown app to add an event this week and I noticed that It had been almost a 1000 days since we have arrived in South Africa. 1000 days! So many things crossed my mind at once.
In this 1000 days my 2 almost 3 year old little baby has blossomed into sweet, yet knowingly doted on, by her siblings (and dad for that matter) princess, whom has officially started school!
In this 1000 days my Luke has grown up, even though my heart still swoons with his every crooked grin, I now realistically see this perfect child has turned into a, well not perfect, but awesome, pre-teen boy.
1000 days is all it has taken for me heart to sink as I have watched this vibrant, happy go- lucky, determined little girl change and develop into a beautiful, insecure, thoughtful, most giving young lady. Starting high school has been a reminder that the years with her have flown by and that the few we have left I want to cherish.
Somewhere in the midst of this 1000 days a spunky little kid without a care in the world has become a guy worried about grades, drivers’ license laws, yet his love of sports has only increased.
In this 1000 days the certificate that gave us complete guardianship over a child I did not birth but who has become my son never less dissolved, why?…. Because he no longer is a child.
It has been a 1000 days of so many milestones, so many happy days, so many days working along side my love, falling deeper and deeper in love with him as we celebrate our 13th 14th and 15th years of marriage.
All this crossed my mind, as I just shook my head. UNBELIEVABLE, where did all these 1000 days go?
I also thought about all that I have learned: so many things I was nervous about before moving but they quickly just became my new norm.
- How to drive on the left side
- How to drive a manual,
- How to correctly ask where the queue for the till is,
- How to think in kilometers, rand, and Celsius.
- How to subtract 6 or 7 in record speed from the hour on my watch to see if I can text my sister.
- How to be at home in South Africa.
I have also learned things that took longer and weren’t as simple, these are lessons that I am still learning daily but have been life changing for me in many ways.
- Learning how to speak another language – The vocab and grammar aren’t the only lessons I am learning, but I am still learning diligence, patience and determination have to be something I daily resolve to have.
- I have learned and still learning that days when I depended on God’s strength turned out way better than those days I depended on mine.
- I am learning that missing family and friends doesn’t dissolve, but thinking on the wonderful things the Lord has given me can make each day a happy day.
1000 days….. some of failures, some of victories, some of loneliness, some of new beginnings, some of goodbyes, some of hellos, some of discouragement, many of contentment have taught me that CHRIST IS ALL I NEED.
And then the last thought, the most profound for me that day in the car, was what have I accomplished in these 1000 days?
Have I done my best?
- Am I worthy of all the money invested in me?
- Have I shared the gospel with those in South Africa as we told everyone we would do?
- Have I mentored like I should?
- Have I mothered my children the best, I can’t get those days back with them?
- Have I been a help to my husband or have a hindered him from going farther, doing more, learning faster?
- Have I done all I could do to show love to my parents, my siblings, my friends, my church back home?
- Have I discouraged the ladies in the ministry here?
- Have I built up our Pastor’s wives like I have needed to?
- Have I loved the children who have no one to love them or have I only thought about loving what is mine?
- Have I expressed my gratitude enough to those that have invested in us?
My list could go on. Some I know the definite answer to, some I am still pondering on.
But I do know that a 1000 days have past just like that:
James 4:14 Whereas ye know not what shall be on the morrow. For what is your life? It is even a vapour, t hat appeareth for a little time, and then vanisheth away
I know that numbering my days has made me stop and think:
Psalm 90:12 So teach us to number our days, that we may apply our hearts unto wisdom
I know that I can’t tell you what the next 1000 days will bring because God has not promise them to me:
Proverbs 27:1 Boast not thyself of to morrow; for thou knowest not what a day may bring forth
but I know that today I need to do the work that God has for me because just like that, another 1000 days will be gone.
4 I must work the works of him that sent me, while it is day: the night cometh, when no man can work.