While I am not really a person who enjoys taking pictures of myself in the real sense of the word “selfie”, I am using the term more in the sense of selfishness. And I definitely struggle with selfishness… On a daily, probably even hourly, basis. I have been thinking about it a lot lately and thought I might share a few thoughts here.
I recently read a quote by C.S. Lewis from his book Mere Christianity that said:
“True humility is not thinking less of yourself; it is thinking of yourself less.”
Ouch. That one really hit home with me. I try to teach my kids all the time. “Always be grateful, be thankful for what you have, don’t complain, its not all about us,” when I, as an adult, struggle with the same issues. Not only is it not all about us, its not about us at all.
When I really think about it, all of my fears and shyness and insecurities stem from selfishness. “What if I try to speak Xhosa and I mess up, what if they laugh? What if I am uncomfortable? What if they don’t like what I said and don’t come back?” See the trend here? It’s all about me!
A few of my favorite verses are Philippians 1:20-21
According to my earnest expectation and my hope, that in nothing I shall be ashamed, but that with all boldness, as always, so now also Christ shall be magnified in my body, whether it be by life, or by death.
For to me to live is Christ, and to die is gain.
This world teaches us the importance of self-worth, self-love, self-confidence, self-awareness and self-identity. But these few verses above (and there are tons more) teach us an entirely different message. My entire life (and death) should be a huge magnifying glass, making Christ bigger. Bigger than me. Bigger than my family. Bigger than my fears and insecurities. My worth is found in Him and His sacrifice. My love for Him should be more than my love for anything else. My confidence is in Him. I need to be aware of His presence in every aspect of my life. And my identity is found in Christ alone.
I am praying today that my life will point others to Him, may they look straight through me and see Christ.