We have now been in Chile for 6 months! I can not believe how quickly the time has passed! I have to admit though that these past six months have not been real “easy”. There are so many things that I am experiencing now and trying to learn that I really wish I would have learned before arriving on the mission field. The worst part is that I had so many wonderful ladies in the States who were willing to teach me but I simply didn’t take advantage of the opportunity.
I am learning here that life does not stop or even slow down in order for me to rest when I am feeling worn out. Now don’t get me wrong, I am still getting plenty of rest at night and we do take a family day each week to spend time together. What I am referring to are those times when you really just want to crawl into a hole and sleep or just not hear a single noise for just and hour or two. I am finding that there is just too many very important things to do in order for me to have those quiet times as often as I may desire them. I am learning to push and push hard. The great thing is that the harder I push the more time and energy I seem to be finding. I have learned that my day must be very organized and that my daily time with Lord and his word MUST come before I do anything else in the morning.
I am also learning that it is important for me to be able to teach others and not use being “shy” as an excuse to sit back and do nothing in the ministry. Colossians 3:16 says
“Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly in all wisdom; teaching and admonishing one another in psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, singing with grace in your hearts to the Lord.”
Through much prayer and struggle in my heart I now see that my “shyness” is fear.
2 Timothy 1:7 says “For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.”
I can’t and won’t learn Spanish by studying my book and never speaking it. I can’t and won’t teach the Chilean ladies here about the being the right kind of wife, mother and child of God if I am too fearful to even speak to them. And most importantly I can’t and won’t share the gospel with them unless I decide to stop being fearful.
The last thing that I will share with you for now is that I am learning to be hospitable
I Peter 4:9 says “Use hospitality one to another without grudging.” I have a LONG ways to go on this one but since I have been working on not being shy or fearful, it is becoming much easier. I now see the importance of having people in my home and of letting the kids have their friends over to play. Now instead of looking forward to my guests leaving (very transparent I know) I don’t want for them to leave and I can’t wait to have them back again!
I am thankful that the Lord is so patient and loving and that he puts just the right people in our lives to teach us. I don’t deserve to here working with such a wonderful team of missionaries. They have been so kind and patient as I have settled into my new life here. I am excited about the future and can’t wait to share more about what the Lord is doing!