Trust Issues Anyone?

At the time that this post was written just 3 years ago, I was just getting to know Kelli Canfield. She is one of my closest friends and the secretary of Vision Baptist Missions.  She daily deals with the struggles and pain of “Pompe Disease”, a form of Muscular Dystrophy. I have seen God use her life to help many people. She doesn’t have a victim mentality and yet she doesn’t suffer alone. She wants God to have the glory in her suffering so that not only her life is strengthened in Christ, but the lives of those around her.  If you have not yet checked out her own personal blog, it would be great to follow her life and see how God continues to use her.

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“So, what is the biggest thing the Lord is teaching me right now–even as I type these words? It’s probably one of the biggest lessons He wants you to learn, too. Though the circumstances God is using to teach me may differ from those He is using in your life, I am sure the lesson He wants me to learn is one He longs for you (and all His children) to learn as well.

It’s simple.

“Trust Me.” He says.

What entered your mind when you read that last line?

Was it. . .

Perhaps the image of a little child leaping into his daddy’s arms while saying “Catch me!”

Or maybe. . .

The thought of some carnival sideshow where the lady stands perfectly still while someone else throws knives all around her?

Or could it be. . .

Fear? A wild fighting against what may come?

 

Whatever it is, I am pretty sure we have all faced situations that compel us to either trust Him or fight Him.

Recently, the situation for me has been muscular dystrophy. It is an always present, never forgettable, well, to be blatantly honest, struggle to live with. And I don’t just mean a physical struggle. I have never struggled more spiritually than I do now. I don’t mean struggle as in constantly failing and falling into sin all the time. I don’t mean struggle as in barely able to keep my head up.

I mean struggle in the sense of being constantly aware of my need to trust Him in everything. Yes, in even this illness. In everything. And I mean struggle in the fact that I daily, hourly, and even sometimes by the minute must choose to trust Him and honor Him and not desperately fight against what He is working out in my life.

I think that is the same choice we all must make in every victory, in every defeat, in every testing, in every storm. Do I trust or do I fight?

Sometimes the fight displays itself differently. Maybe I avoid the situation; ignore it. Maybe I get depressed. Or angry. Or even bitter. Maybe I choose to hate God or those around me. Maybe I get frustrated. Or maybe the fight shows its ugly face in something so easily dismissed as just being a little bit irritable today.

But that fight won’t give me the end result that I so desperately desire. . .

Rest.

Rest in Him.

I can tell when I am not trusting the Lord in any situation I face because my heart will not be at rest with Him. I will find myself frustrated and easily irritated not only with my circumstances, but also with my husband, my children and with pretty much everything. Am I so bold as to blatantly accuse God concerning the trial I am facing? No, not usually. But my frustration, irritability, snappiness, and overall ugliness are tell-tale signs of a heart that is not trusting Him in everything.

When I come to Him and trust Him in all He is doing, there is a true quietness in my heart; it is no longer restless. No longer needing answers; no longer searching for a way out of the situation. I don’t need to know why; most likely I will never know the “why” that we so often search for. I don’t need to know if He’s going to give me an escape route; sometimes there is no way out in this life. I don’t need the details of what is coming ahead; those details may be scarier than the present details. But I can rest knowing He is God. I can rest knowing that He loves me. I can rest knowing his grace is sufficient and that His strength is made perfect in my weakness. And I can rest in so many more promises of who He is and what He is doing and will do.

And even if I would not choose the situation for myself, if He chooses it for me, then I can accept it, stop fighting, and rest in Him knowing He will accomplish great things with it.

If God has given you a trial right now, and you are finding yourself restless, frustrated, irritable, or downright mean and bitter, ask the Lord to show you where you may not be trusting Him. Meditate on who He is and on His many promises and ask Him to burn those truths in your heart. It’s not enough to know them in your head. Ask Him to make those truths real and then choose to rest in them.”   – Kelli

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  • 9 thoughts on “Trust Issues Anyone?

    1. Kelli, you are truly a blessing and a teacher to so many! Very thankful for your sweet spirit and the constant encouragement you are to everyone. I love you, and I am thankful to know that I have a Savior you can trust in the battles you face with your illness. I don’t know how else we could find comfort in this life. He is so good!

    2. Awesome Kelli, I’ve been dealing with this issue in my own life. This is such a sweet lesson for any child of God. The lessons God teaches us are the most powerful. Thank you for sharing!
      Love you

    3. Kelli, you may not be a missionary wife but you sure have a lesson we all need!! Trusting is the key to any child of God and one I am still learning, not sure why a child can trust his parent so easily, but as a child of God sometimes I just can’t fall into His arms!

    4. this is what i needed to hear thank you Kelli for being outspoken about your struggles about being real and reminding us to trust in God not just in the struggles but in all things. love you my friend.

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