“Mommy, I’m scared…there is a monster under my bed and it keeps making noises,” Ali Grace said in tears one night as she stood by my bedside. I took her, placed her back in her bed, and as I tucked her in this simple thought came to my mind. Who is REALLY in here protecting her…Me or the Lord? So I knelt down by her bed and prayed a simple little prayer with her and got up thinking I am NOT the one in control here…God is!
A few weeks later, little did I know that I would be standing beside another bedside. Not the bedside of one of my children, but that of a grandparent that has made such an impression on my life. As I stood there with tears streaming down my face, it was my dying grandfather, who helped me realize, once again, that I was not in control here either. He gently lifted his weak and weary hand, pulled me down gave me a kiss, then pushed my head against his chest and said “I am going to be just fine.” You see, he knew who was in control of what was going on at that moment. He was ready to meet the Savior who had completely changed his life many years ago and in turned changed mine as well. As bad as I wanted to change what was going to happen…it was the Lord who was in control.
Everyday I fall more in love with my children and family, but I must understand that with those feelings, I have to fall more dependable on the Lord to care for them. I have to remember, it’s not about what I can do…it’s about what God has done and can do.
This verse came to my mind when thinking about this. If God can make time to feed the birds of the air…I can only imagine how much more time he puts into caring for us. Why would he need my help?
Behold the fowls of the air: for they sow not, neither do they reap , nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feedeth them. Are ye not much better than they?
I am beginning to realize that I am not holding the reins here…Jesus is!